rest in peace.
It is so difficult, being here, in this country. I know, I'm not alone here and I have some amazing friends and of course my boyfriend. But as long as I'm not around family, it really sucks. Not because I'm ill, but because my grandfather recently passed away. We where very close, I used to call him and we would talk on the phone for an hour or more. He was one of the few people I wasnt scared to share everything with, he knew everything and he talked to me more like a friend, then a grandaughter and I miss him so much and its extremly hard writing this now. I feel like I need to write this, I can even feel it helping, kinda. We used to joke about how we were both in the hospital, laughing at the fact that we both have and had Cancer, how crazy is that, I guess its a way of dealing with everything that was going on. I have loads of good memories with him, and I think maybe ill keep them for myself for now. Until I'm more ready to talk about it. I know he was in a lot
